I just suffered a severe "VICIOUS KILLING OF A HUMAN HEART."last nite i couldnt sleep well.i was very emotional,i controlled,i controlled, i told myself theres nothing to be sad over...i control my tears,i bear with the pain at the core of my heart.Finally i pour at 10.30pm.not alot,but merely there.i woke up in the middle of the night, all was silence, i look through the clear windows..everything was dark.i knew i had to accept it,accept the fact that it has already happened, nothing can be undone or reverse.

DSA lab test tmr,hope i can do it sucessfully.i pray

And i got vincent by my side=X Thank God.
i knew i was not really ready for all these hurts,but i took it as a lesson each time i learn new things, i learn guys liKE to sweet talk,i learn guys like to play girls feelingS merry go round, up u go and up u down.FOR a moment,i felt i no longer had emotions but only emoticons, coz i no longer buy what guys say for now.im very vigilant about things especially in relationships for now.

I was staring hard at the JAVA CODings yesterday in my room. I READ ALOUD"StringTokenizer stz=new StringTokenizer...."i look at it for awhile,my mind was so dead, i couldnt forget what has just happened an hour ago.
called jamie to chat with , and she hear me out.i just feel very painn,the pain is so unbearable, u feel like someones just stab u with a knife through.ya...i just dunno why i have to go through all these unnecessary hurt.Unnecessary hurt...

i suddenly realise i rather study and get stressed up till i have diarrhoea then to suffer all these pain.Seriously i think it hurts more than being stressed.



i just want to cherish him for now...but at the same time i shall be abit selfish coz i dun wanna embed too much emotions.